really sweet people..

hey.. this is dedicated to a bunch of nice people..

today had been so nice.. really.. tho it wasn't a 100% surprise as intended.. the whole outing to sentosa was fun.. to begin with.. hmm i dun usually have such fun often.. heehee.. and 1st time i played the freesbie actually (is that how you spell it?) hahaha.. and nua-ing at the hammock.. talking crap.. blading.. everything lah..was so much fun..

all the effort for getting me the cake and gift.. really very very nice of you.. i dun celebrate this occasion with many all these years.. but you guys made a difference this year.. and i really felt soooo.. 幸福.. there's no better word to describe it already..

bali villa.. erm.. or villa bali.. anyway.. watever lah.. nice place you've brought me to.. and thanks for implanting a superb memory on my 24th year of my years living.. hahaha

hugz.. kisses.. erm.. everything.. thankz dudes and dudettes!!

the treasure and the map

again.. me and my thoughts..

was juz running thru my mind.. when you've got some treasure somewhere.. it's so precious to you then you hid it well.. and had your map to remind and teach you how the find the treasure.. but.. maybe.. just maybe.. you might realise.. there're some focusing errors..

maybe.. you're thinking of protecting the map.. cos you believe anyone who find the map.. will find "your" treasure through your prescribed route.. so you end up thinking of keeping and hiding the map..

then one day.. when you want to retrieve the treasure.. you follow the route in your map.. you reach the famliar place.. where you kept the treasure.. but.. it's gone.. why so??

well.. you're so engrossed by the map.. you didn't realise.. that some other.. could find an alternative route didn't you? by then.. when you finally remembered that it's the treasure that matters.. it had been taken by someone who found it by another route.. your map has become worthless.. no matter how many times you re-walk the same route.. the treasure's long gone..

just got home from movies...

well well.. hello..

coming to the end of another week.. guess pretty blessed.. despite a tough weekend last week, my company's very generous to 'close shop' tomorrow to let us have the day off.. =)

that explains why i can afford to have just caught MI:3 at this hour.. hmm wasn't too bad a show i guess.. though found it pretty predictable.. the emotional strings attached in the storyline made it that bit nicer than 1 & 2.. at least that's what i think... i tend to feel.. there are some people in our lives.. whom we'd just helplessly assign 'top priority status' ahead of anything else.. k.. that may not be anywhere close to what people look for in this show.. but anyways.. quite liked it lah.. more than i thought i would.. just a pity that i was kinda sleepy and tired.. so became a little strenuous for me.. hee..

k.. nuff for this evening.. time for some good rest..

chipmunk..

heehee.. my new colleagues said everyone looks like some animal... and.. me.. i am supposed to look like a chipmunk!! hahahahahaha!!! hey.. but check this out.. http://www.cuteducky.com/cute_animal_quiz.html

well well.. had a long long weekend ah.. friday evening went for this sec school gathering.. aiyah.. fun lah.. cos 1st time.. out in this kinda setting with my bro.. hahaha.. and everyone else.. hmm i'm happy lor.. =D tho the logic of drinking games were always crappy.. somehow.. they are always played so seriously and actually become challenging for some.. wahahahahahahaaha.. then we realise some people cannot count very well... hahaha.. and some people just have super good luck... or otherwise.. hahaha.. k lah.. i'm like crapping away.. anyway.. fun lah.. i had a good time =)

but come saturday and sunday.. super siong lor.. talking for hours endlessly for the comapny's roadshow.. whoa.. totally dehydrated boy.. drowning myself with bottles of water.. phew.... and now feel like might be losing my voice.. =( hopefully not bah.. i'll get some salt water after i end off this entry..

that's all for now.. adios!

a little sleepy..

waiting for a file to transfer.. like taking longer than ever... *yawnz*

but kai, thankz yah! =)

along parellel paths..

definition of a relationship.. i dunno.. these are sudden thoughts.. can someone just stop me from being distracted by silly thoughts.. hee..

gal is along path A.. boy on path B.. they see each other from across from afar.. then they look North and see point C.. they know they want to be there.. so.. they continue walking.. they are moving closer.. and closer.. the happy ever after ending.. at point C.. they meet.. so sweet.. they drew an inverted letter 'v' with their story.. how nice..

scenario 2.. still gal is along path A.. boy on path B.. they see each other from across from afar.. then they look North and see point C.. they know they want to be there.. so.. they continue walking.. then some bright light shone on them from the back.. one turns around, and realises South.. he looks at gal and thinks.. what do i want.. are we really heading the same way.. he.. thinks.. perhaps not.. so.. he reverses his steps and walks away.. ouch..

scenario 3.. same, again.. still gal is along path A.. boy on path B.. they see each other from across from afar.. then they look North and see point C.. so.. they continue walking.. this time.. the light shone again.. none looked back.. they continued walking.. and reached North.. but did not meet.. wonder why.. they looked back.. at the footprints.. they didn't see the forming of the inverted 'v' anymore.. instead they saw.. 2 parellel lines.. they reached North.. but were not at point C..

think i dun have to explain further right.. hmm.. improvised this from something learnt from elsewhere.. if this is a reminder or encouragement to any.. it'd be my joy that it is helpful.. but if it rings an alarm.. it calls for some attention to perhaps rethink about the routes you've chosen..

love, mel

one of my worst habits

there aren't exactly very major issues now.. beside my assignments that are due at 7.30 this evening..

but.. like just restless.. with everything.. hmm prob it's juz another transition.. to my new job... somehow.. i hold some reservations to the environment.. you know.. the gut feel kinda thing... sigh.. but k lah.. i prayed liao lah.. i'll make the best out of it bah..

anyway.. my assignments ah.. really.. i can never forgive myself for this habit.. like.. motivated by pressure.. what kinda shit mindset to have that i always take my own sweet time along the way when i know i'll be darn stressed on the last day.. tying up extremely loose ends..

i'm really looking for trouble!!!

a strengthened heart vs a hardened heart

you know.. sometimes.. issues in life.. can really devour our life little by little.. without ourselves realising it.. this is for joe.. and some other people i care for.. i mean.. for everyone lah.. but dedicated to them cos i know they are facing or have faced difficult trials along their paths..

lately.. i'm discovering that i actually try very hard to be a happy person.. let me tell you.. it's a challenge.. the obvious fact is there are too many unwanted things happening around us.. and we'll never seem to be ready enough when surprises hit us..

some people.. they get numb, immuned.. after the pain.. the world or certain issues seem hopeless.. cos we lose our way, and lose the faith in hope.. these people seem strong.. maybe they can move on.. i don't know.. but this is what i mean by hardened hearts.. when people feel painful enough.. they'll simply give up emotionally, and mentally.. but they are not always conscious.. they grow to reject ideas of hope.. like ''aiyah.. that's life anyway.. wat can i do?" but if there's a chance of walking deeper into these people's hearts.. it'll simply reveal how much the pain was to have caused this..

some others.. are a little more blessed.. not because they are lucky.. but somehow.. they believed and understood.. that everybody goes through pain.. (ok.. i know some others really very good life lah.. smooth sailing.. but life is unpredictable lah.. so.. don't waste time wishing we were them.. cos we are not) well.. point is.. when some get hurt or fall.. it's so painful.. but they learn to resist it.. and not let themselves be tormented.. not that they don't feel the pain.. but they make the pain worthwhile.. instead of being overpowered by the crap.. they stand up against it.. and not refuse to surrender to it.. these people are strengthened.. they were not beaten.. but they learnt to deal with the heartbreak..

sometimes i reflect on my life.. it's like quite a fine line between the 2.. occaasionally, i get confused too.. but.. i guess the best way.. in my opinion.. in my context.. to overcome pain and fear.. is to confront them.. the logic is simple.. like a fight between 2, if one decides to keep retreating and dodging or crouching down.. the other simply gets the chance to overpower even more.. forcing the opponent to retreat further away.. but if, instead he fought upright, upfront.. the other would not have chance to keep invading endlessly.. k.. sounds a bit crappy.. dunno how to explain.. but.. it's real.. go watch some tournament.. hahaha.. you'll know wat i mean..

so well.. it's a choice.. to swallow and suffer in the repercussions of the pain.. or to face it bravely.. the pain was already caused.. fact of life.. a memory, yes.. and a painful one.. so why not let it be more useful to your life instead of instilling further damage to yoursleves.. use it a a tool to be stronger for the next battle! =)

if there's somewhere you need to source for strength, my recommendation is.. the unfailing God! you'll be amazed really by what he can do in your lives.. but you need to take the step forward lah.. can't just sit and wait for some miracle like God tosuddenly touch you and tell you, you're healed.. you need actions too.. God will always do the rest to help.. but the preceding statement is the term applicable.. that is.. to do your part =)

God bless! here's a hug of hope and love to anyone reading this..

love, mel

press on!

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.”.

James 1:2-8

happy.. started a diary

hee.. i'm still in a happy mood.. still like erm.. fascinated by the interested week i didn't expect..

spurred me to start a diary.. i never really kept one since it always seemed to fail.. but this time.. quite confident it would work.. cos every entry i write it to God.. hmm you know like "Dear God, ..." i think it is effective leh.. and it helps me to be consistent in prayer too.. as I write.. feel like I'm telling God about my day.. the people I met.. who I wish I could be more of a blessing to and all my crappy thoughts.. good and bad stuff.. hee.. like my dialogue with God.. ok lah... maybe monologue.. hahahaha.. but i know He's listening and reading it.. =)

anyway.. hmm so much for the unwinding week.. still have a fair bit to do for my final assignments.. and starting on my new job tomorrow.. dun really know wat to expect.. but.. hmm leave it to God..

love always.. mel

nice song..

it's quite applicable to life i guess? to me at least.. ;) this is just the 2nd part tho

把从前想了一遍，谢谢了，伤我的人
想做乐观的人，每种雨声，听了都不冷

我并不是天生爱寂寞 ，却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我，我还是一无所有

我要快乐，我要能睡得稳
有些人，不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨... 我早应该割拾
我要快乐，哪怕笑得再大声
心不是热的，全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的（我的决定是对的）