a night of revision

seems crappy eh.. revising and blogging..

this subject is quite impactful... weird description?

"social psychology" is something very real in our lives.. basically everything we study in it happens to all of us... it is simply like theorizing our lives... and this relates to my concept of empathy...

it wouldn't seem natural to still believe that people can be kind by nature since we live in a very practical "real world"; at least not in everybody's perspective.

still, as i reflect, observe and see people around... is it true that people have no empathy and are simply unfeeling.. i tend to feel not... and i insist in my opinion.. i feel that.. people (myself included i suppose?) tend to have "hardened" hearts, or possibly "doubtful" and "fearful" hearts.. that's why, we refuse to acknowledge empathy that we all do have for people.. be it friends, family, colleagues.. or anyone... it's like when you see something happening.. whether you act on a response.. don't we all feel that pinch somewhere in our hearts or minds? that little pinch is what i call empathy for people...

"social psych" talks so much about what influences opinions, behaviors, interpretations... about how we draw the equation of what situations or people mean to us... which implies the obvious, that it's all socially constructed...

it can be scary.. and studying this subject makes me revisit my "lifelong" opinion that there's a fine line between being skeptical and realistic or optimistic..

when we become sensitive to break down issues into little components.. we start to understand the possible "whys" and so we recognize the existence of variables that causes opinions and behaviors.. and.. so what could be distinctively right or wrong? it's wrong to kill but if somebody attacks and you retaliate and kill another.. who's responsible? this may be a litttle extreme...

but it's like.. understanding the flow of society, but uncontrollably still being led by the flow... what's a schema and a stereotype? what's "just" or simply the "preferred"? man.. so many questionable issues.. obedience = following instructions = correct, but if instruction were wrong, the obeyer would be at fault?

when we visit the issue of attraction... opposite attracts? or the underlying similarities makes the difference? perception of attractiveness is yet another issue altogether.. but again, is there a biological component that is is "common" standard? well, it seemed to be so in some studies..

man.. social psych.. it's so logical, yet so "big"...

mugging

hmm.. what a night.. studying social psych.. which's taught by the "by-far-most-cannot-make-it" lecturer!! surely the textbook does a better job!

anyway.. had 2 unexpected online conversations with friends i haven't met or spoken with for months... was a pleasant surprise.. but realised that life wasn't smooth-sailing for everyone..

keep going peeps!! keep your focus and don't stray.. the dark clouds will clear.. sometimes slowly, other times faster.. but all the time surely! =)

missed out writing..

peeps,

once again i'm back.. and as it was before, i'm blogging amidst my last minute project deadline mad rush.. "mel, you deserve to bang your head!!" hee

been awhile.. and i realise i miss writing.. or blogging.. whatever.. some of you been asking.. what happened to your blog?? basically nothing.. just stopped awhile.. stop being a kid to ask why lah.. hahaha..

anyway.. i had my first experience which i think or believe that i heard the Lord "speak" to me. while i don't think i have a discerning power strong enough.. i really felt that He did..

before you exagerate your thoughts.. it's not like some mega prophecy or revelation, but a gentle reminder and warning that the Lord will not forsake me =)

can't explain it well enough, but its amazing.. really amazing.. that i have to share it with all..

God's glory and wonders MUST BE BROADCASTED!! such things CANNOT BE HIDDEN..

你的视线, 是谅解, 为什么舍不得熄灭, 我逆着光, 却看见

This song's by Stephanie Sun, one of my fave singers.. Initially, I thought the beat was catchie and i liked it.. and typically of me, i read up lyrics of the songs i like.. and i was trying to like "feel" the song.. which in most cases, secular songs ended up sad and lonely.. but this one.. was pretty unique... i felt like i could sing it to God. hee.. really, God's my light whom I walk away, yet look back and always find Him there, by my side.

也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀, 很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答

我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达, 拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光, 那瞬间是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线, 是谅解, 为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光, 却看见
那是泪光, 那力量我不想再去抵挡
面对希望, 逆着光, 感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我以为无路后退, 反复证明
这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑, 忍住疲惫
睁开眼, 打开窗, 才发现你就是光芒!

你是光芒