i wonder why..

i thought my blog would be a very sunshine mood place.. but dun seem like it ah..

i wonder why.. seems like i lost a certain control in my life..

i used to be very adaptable.. but i seem to be losing 'it' these days..
i always managed to be in control of situations in my life no matter what comes ahead.. but don't seem to be so..

is it growing up?? why are some situations just so painful.. i wish i dun have to face them..

transitions were always challenging.. but well, guess i survived them so far.. the first i remembered as some kinda challenge.. was when i was turning 13 going on to a co-ed school.. many more came along the way.. in fact, every year seemed more eventful filled with never ending learning curves (what a diplomatic term to use) till now..

but some things are just beyond our hands, aren't they?

transitions are always happening.. WHY DON"T THEY EVER STOP??

but i really thought i did manage to handle them..

perhaps i'm just tired..

you know.. when transitions happen.. it's like you have to look after everyone else.. think about how people are affected physically or emotionally.. and this applies to your own transitions as well as the transitions of people who are near and close at heart..

but it's really wearing me out!!!!!! and i dread it.. God give me strength!!! I need it..