sigh-ish mood

seems like the moment i'm not doing anything... i will just go online and come into my blog to type something...

aiyah... i can't even figure out myself properly... actually no lah i can lah... just dunno... i think i'm too imaginative... live with so many assumptions i made about people... like assuming their reaction... then everytime i kena bull's eye, then feel like... "sigh, i knew that was coming" sounds so negative... sometimes i find myself very wierd... seeking what i do not wish to seek, trying to achieve what i do not want... so contradicting... today's mood is so indescribable... no, not today... but these days... i can wake up feeling chirpy... or feel like crying the moment i open my eyes... so odd...

seriously, nothing is that wrong with my life... at least nothing seems fatal enough to be too wrong... since i'm like any other normal human being breathing the same air in this world, sharing some space where i set my feet upon... what could be so wrong about it?

suddenly thought about what we talked about last night... that i find myself trying to reason out the cause of a reaction or gesture i recieve from any other - boyfriend, friend, acquaintant, family, colleague... so it somehow always seem logical and "dutiful" to emphatize, forgive and understand... or not even forgive... because when i understand, i already know it's not a fault... then it gives not basis for anger, thus no basis for forgiveness... hey... i'm not trying to sound like a noble person... cos i'm no where near it... just that it seems logical enough to be interpreted this way...

sigh... feeling so sigh-ish today... k lah... enough... bye!