a long time

hey.. been missing for awhile.. been rather busy lately.. clearing my assignments.. finally can get a short break before the next 2 due on 19 April..

i've been thinking.. but my thoughts are messy.. can't explain it.. my mind seems stifled.. so much i wanna do.. but everything seems tough..

i've tendered my resignation on friday last week.. and i'm now serving my notice period before i'm off and away from this place.. hee.. but honestly.. i'm not all that happy about this whole thing.. i look forard to moving on to a new job.. still, can't help but think about the familiarity of this place.. i mean.. 2 years isn't a very long period but definately significant enough to miss this place.. so used to the space here.. you know what i mean.. i see people i know when i walk around.. know where to go skive.. oops.. haha.. it's one place where i sweat my arse out for work.. had fun, went through some struggles.. aiyah.. dunno lah.. i simply grew attached to this place subconsciously..

off i'm moving on to a new.. not just new.. but different environment.. it's much smaller.. within an office space.. (not like the 2 terminals i walk around in the public and transit areas) less people.. and i'm pretty sure it's gonna be competitive there too.. but i do trust and belief that God has something planned for me.. from the way He led me to the job, i know God planned this route for me.. I haven't understood why, but i'm certain He led the way.. so i'm keeping faith in this journey ;)

that's for my work.. and.. hmm.. over last 2 weeks, met up with our capoeira group people.. one was our mestre's birthday, and the other a wedding chalet.. was good time catching up with bits here and there from everyone.. i miss those times ah.. well well.. we had a roda at the chalet.. (a capoeira game) cool, good fun.. but whoa.. i cannot make it sia... kena tripped and fell.. well, it pays off to practice and shows if you've not been training.. you know.. the mind sees the attack coming.. but pysically, the limbs are lagging!! haha.. brincadeira.. (joke in portugues) well.. but liked it.. see how things goes.. maybe.. i'll be back someday?? hahaha..

and yah.. got a sudden thought reflecting on a seminar i attended.. on relationships and choosing life partners.. this particular part of it hit me pretty deep.. it's about soul-ties bound by past relationships.. or even sexual relationships.. thought the message on this was pretty powerful.. you see.. basically it says that a dating couple should not cross boundaries of sexual bonding for a fundamental simple reason.. that is.. dating does not come with responsibilities of a marriage.. and therefore should not come with the same privileges as well.. i dunno why i suddenly thought about this but just wanna put it down here.. if someone needs to talk about it.. please call me.. i'll be glad to hear you out.. the part about "soul-ties" that if any have committed pre-marital sex or even adultry.. blah blah blah.. you would have been bounded by "soul-ties" that "contaminates" and binds your life.. it's not about just emotional or physical ties.. it's a sin that binds you.. but God, is ever forgiving.. that "if we confess our sins, God is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness" 1John 1:9. But God forgives with conditions.. you must always remember, it's if you confess sins with truthfulness and repentance.. then God is able to break us free from these soul-ties and gone are the works of the evil one!

that's all for now.. heading to church for worship practice.. 1st time leading dance worship.. i'm not quite confident cos i'm not really familiar with the steps.. seeking God's guidance through this.. so till the next.. God bless all!

luv mel