mars

hello people..

despite having a weekend of very little sleep.. my mind seemed to have went through ecstasy.. hmm.. not very sure if it was the right word to use.. but anyway.. for a light start... i kena sabo-ed during our company's dnd!!! by the "ham sup" mc.. spell "madagascar" with my butt on stage (by the way, this is like a forfit in primary school games lor).. my.. what a farewell impression to leave for my colleagues.. hahaha.. but well.. did enjoy the evening anyway.. adios colleagues!

a very good friend lent me this taiwanese drama vcd to watch.. before i continue.. i agree it's one of those F4 member's thingee that many would think is simply silly naive and lame.. blah blah blah.. anyway, it's called <战神> or Mars.. as i watched it.. it brought me to a very different perspective.. a way deeper one... i don't think it's on sale anymore since it's quite old.. basically it's about this guy who has a history of being mentally ill and this gal who was raped by her stepdad.. the story tells of how they walked out of darkness and "made it" lah.. really really liked it.. it is more meanful than any gal and guy falls in love.. blah blah.. happily ever after.. nothing of that sort..

know what.. i used to be seen as (probably still is) this gal who's naively emotional with drama serials and all.. but after watching this one.. i kind of learnt something new about myself.. at a point where i almost agreed that believing in these "airy-fairy" stuff is unreal and impossible.. i realised this is simply the part of me that keeps me moving forward.. many people always ask, why and how do i keep smiling, i used to say that it's a matter of choice to face life with a positive attitude and realise that nobody owes us a living.. but just this very weekend.. it feels like.. that's not all.. it's a huge part because of these so called "airy-fairy" things that i believe in.. truly and sincerely.. we are human beings sharing a space in this world.. and it's all these emotionally intriguing shows i watch.. that remind me, that the fundamentals of life and love is so straightforward and simple.. but we always let the most ridiculous challenges hold us back and snatch us away from what we actually are as a person.. i dunno how this sound to you reading it.. but my smile is a gift from God.. as long as i continue to believe in Him, His love, and the love in life.. no one. not anybody can take away this seemingly naive but very real thing in life i hold on to, i will continue to keep this smile through the happiest moments and darkest hours.. and pray that it will be a blessing to all of you too..

i truly understand and believe : 黑暗最巨大的敌人，叫做 ---- 爱.

so to all those who are going through low seasons in life, those who may be depressed, feeling helpless or even hopeless.. just like to encourage you.. don't even have the thought that i had an easy stride because you see me smiling.. there are loads more in life everyone goes through than what you see.. but even then.. a true smile demonstrates genuine joy even through tough encounters in life.. what it takes, is courage, faith, and trust in love.. if you'd like to borrow the dvd, i've got it.. just let me know.. would be most ready to share it with you!

to terence, thank you for the wonderful worship you led on sunday.. the Lord's presence was so strong.. tremendously powerful.. actually it's the 1st time i'm leading in dance in worship.. i dunno how to phrase myself.. but everything fell so nicely into place.. the emotions i went through.. the ladies dancing, the entire worship team.. and you, the worship leader.. the cry out to God was so real.. and.. i just dunno how to describe this.. press on.. God's hearing us.. I know that.. I'm you do too ;)